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It Is Your Aversion To Suffering That Hurts More (Love Suffering)

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When I am out in the world, I feel like a sophisticated, adult, mature, and generally well-rounded person. I feel good. Awesome. Exceptional at times, even. But, as soon as I visit my parents, through no fault of their own, but all because of the ideas and prejudices that I have cultivated in my mind palace, I feel like I am a child again, who doesn’t know what she’s doing, and has no clue where she’s going in life. I will go in, knowing my goals, and aspirations, and having everything set up perfectly in my head. And then I’ll come out feeling like the biggest failure ever. Of course, this has all to do with the fact that my parents (thankfully) have really high aspirations and standards for me, standards that perhaps, I shall never ever reach in my life. But, that means, that I always keep on working hard, pushing myself, and my boundaries to get higher and higher. This…

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My Meditation Practice Has Affected Every Single Aspect Of My Life

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When I first started meditating, I did it, because it sounded like a good way to learn more about myself. Who am I, I asked in my journal over and over again. They said, meditation is a good way to get to know yourself. For whatever reason, I have always been interested in learning and knowing more about myself. The physical world is awesome, and I like living in it. But I spend a lot of time in myself, in my head, and in my body, trying to figure out who am I and all of those fun questions.

In addition, I only feel attracted to people who are on the same journey as I am. The people who ask the difficult questions, and who sit alone with themselves while they ponder these intriguing questions.

Who am I? Why am I here? What is going on in this world? Why does it feel like everything is going to hell in a hand-basket? How can I be the best person possible in every moment? Why do I feel like such a failure at times? What can I do to leave this world a better place than when I came into it? Am I doing the best I can in every moment? Where will we go from here? Will it resemble Earth in any form? Do past lives exist? If they do exist, is time non-linear and are all past lives happening all at once? Do parallel universes exist? Do ghosts, fairies, and unicorns exist? Why do I believe that this world is magical and everyone is good?

And so many more questions. (more…)

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